Aries - the dichotomy of the poison you’ve been soaking in and a future you can carve into something safe always feels like it should be enough to spark you into someone who never gets scared, but i know better than anyone that that never happens; that uncertainty will sit on your shoulder and whisper into your ear, but i swear to you that someday you won’t even notice.

Taurus - in a few years you will have grown into something so assured and it will feel so easy; looking back, you’ll miss being so nervous and it won’t make any sense, but you will miss the feeling of having your whole life ahead of you to find your footing.

Gemini - whenever someone gives me roses, i cut off all the thorns and save them in a glass jar; you remind me of them, dangerous, and trapped, and waiting.

Cancer - i hope the world starts treating you better, so that you can start expecting better from the world.

Leo - writing for the first time in a long time can feeling like scraping dirt from under your nails; it can feel like honey in your veins, but the only way to feel clean again is to write until it’s all gone out of you.

Virgo - i used to hold my head under the bathwater while i thought of everyone who had ever treated me badly; i used to treat myself like a poppet, like sticking pins in myself could hurt someone else, but what i learned is that skin gets tired, and walking away is so much easier than using yourself as a punishment.

Libra - the word “sorry” has been living under my canine teeth lately; i don’t know how to get it out gently, i either push it out like an excuse or i bite down hard.

Scorpio - icyness feels good, it feels like revenge and freedom and love all at once, but there will come a day when your fingers are too cold for anyone to let you trace the outline of their face.

Sagittarius - think of whatever has been weighing on your heart, and fold that fear so small it fits into a locket, so that in three years or ten you can open it back up and smile at how tiny it is; maybe whatever is digging at you then will look just as small.

Capricorn - i hope you learn someday that the amount of hours in a day is finite, it isn’t something you can stretch, and your arms will get tired from trying.

Aquarius  -  i will never be 21 and heartsick and in paris ever again; i will never learn to appreciate things until they’ve become something i can never go back to.

Pisces - busyness has a habit of turning me into a bad friend, but i won’t apologize anymore for the ways that life keeps kicking at my ankles to trip me up; i can’t feel sorry for the time i spend bringing myself back to life instead of spending my time in bars so loud i can’t think of any of the ways i used to heal.